Today was a good day. A lot of progress made for everyone. It seemed to be just good news after good news today.
When we arrived at the hospital for the morning visit, he was already 20 minutes into a vent trial. He had been successfully getting enough oxygen for 20 MINUTES! It was fantastic news. As soon as he can get off that ventilator he can be moved into a regular ICU room so I can stay with him all day. He was doing well at the morning visit, he is still really groggy and out of it, but that is to be expected from the type of facial and leg trauma he has experienced.
After the morning visit I was in desperate need to do laundry so we hit the laundry mat here at the hotel. While we were there I got the best call of my life. I saw that Mother (Jakie's Mom) was calling, when I answered I heard the best 3 little words ever "What up dork", it was Jakie. I melted. He was quiet of course but it was him. We spoke briefly and I was glad to have been able to hear from him. One of the hardest things about all of this was being secluded from seeing Jakie, so it was uplifting to hear from him. I believe he will start some rehabilitation there at the hospital before they talk about sending him home.
At the afternoon visit we got there and they had moved Lenny into this type of chair that had his legs lower that was good for his lungs and circulation. We were so excited when we saw he was moved we gasped, and everyone looked at us. Then we figured out that Lenny hated the chair, he kept falling/sliding down and was making him miserable. We told him it was helping but he was really frustrated which always makes it hard. This visit was the worst one for me as far as him not wanting to let me leave. Yiyi had to pull me out, it was hard. I guess you develop this overwhelming fear once an accident like this happens that if you let them out of your site it could happen again. That is something I will have to find a way to deal with, that I am sure will get easier in time, but for now I want to be with him every waking minute, which isn't possible because I need all those wonderful doctors and nurses to make him better. The vent trials that they are doing today are 1 hour off and 3 hours on, so he had another 1 hour trial since our morning visit which is fantastic news.
When I got to the evening visit he was back on his bed and sleeping. He woke up a little when I came in and said hello and he peeked open that left eye a little bit again and when I asked if he could see me he gave me the "little bit" hand signal. After that he fell asleep and I just stood over him watching him sleep holding his hand. Those are the moments of reflection that I stand there and thank God he is alive, that they all are. That in this time of such pain and sorrow I also feel such luck and thanks that he is still here. Staring at him and all those tubes and machines is when you get lost in the haze of "this can't be real".
We received more get well cards today, it is overwhelming the kindness that you all are showing, and words can never express how grateful I am. I am very excited for the day that I can read Lenny all his Get Well Cards, right now he is so sleepy that he wouldn't even remember, so I am keeping them all in an envelope for him.
I went to Wal-Mart and decided to make some baskets of cookies and muffins for the nurses and doctors, it was nice to feel like I could try to give back just a little for all their hard work and kindness. So when we showed up for the night visit it put a smile on their faces. To see what they go through with all these trauma patients is just amazing. The patience they display is unlike anything I have ever seen before. I have seen patients be awful to them and the families be awful to them, and it just makes you want to cry for them, but they are invincible and keep on doing what they do best.
At the night visit he looked comfortable, but he was really hot, so we got some cool wash cloths and cooled him down. They have to cover him up during visiting times so he is always pulling on that stupid gown when we are in there, but I lift it up and keep him cool with the fan they are so kind to let him have. After I cooled him down he went back to sleep and again looked peaceful. I decided to go ahead and leave before he woke up again and then we would have a repeat performance of the afternoon.
His constant complaint today was the catheter. He kept saying he had to pee and we kept explaining that he was and that it was just the pressure from the catheter, but he is having a hard time with it. I asked him quietly to try not to focus on it and try to rest.
All in all it was a progressive day, and I look forward to more of those. Tomorrow they will try longer vent trials to see how he does.
Thank you all again for all your kind words for Lenny and I. I value you all and your comments give me the strength to get through each day. I slept better last night, but I still feel exhausted and a bit like a zombie just going through the motions of the day, but that will pass as I adjust to this new way of life. I miss work, as I really love my job, and I really took for granted how simple life was when we just went through our daily routines. One day we will be back there, and I long for that day. Until then, I will feed off all your strength and energy to get my Lenny home.
Love you all,